I’m having a hard time letting go of some anger.
It’s kind of stupid I guess, but my feelings were very hurt.
As you know, my birthday was a couple of weeks ago.
Two things happened that really upset me, and I can’t quite let it go.
It probably makes me seem selfish, but at the same time it was two very important people in my life that I expected more out of… which I guess is my fault for having expectations… which is why it makes it seem selfish & probably stupid. But my feelings were hurt, so it’s not that stupid. Does that even make any sense?
1. My brother didn’t call/text/Facebook/email or anything on my birthday. And it’s not like it’s some random month of the year where he might forget…. my birthday is 5 days before his. Just a text would have been nice. Seriously. Even when we don’t take very often it’s the one week out of the year that we always talk to each other twice. And I got big, fat, nothing. I don’t know what’s going on in his world. I called him on his birthday (much to my chagrin) , left a message and of course he didn’t call back.
2. I havent talked to my Las Vegas BFF in quite a while. She’s always really busy with work, and now the new boyfriend. I guess I expected more out of her, being my BFF and all… She left for a 3 week trip abroad a day or 2 before my birthday. It seems that all I rated was a text message from the plane when she had already flown to NYC. That really hurt my feelings too. And now she’s back and is supposed to call me tonight and I just can’t stop being mad.
I know if I voice either of these things to the people involved, I’m going to sound like a complete idiot. I know I need to let it go. But at the same time, I sort of feel like they should know I was hurt by their actions.
I just don’t know what to do. Sigh.